Reconcile with Scarves and Wine

a ball of yarn

We are broken, You and I.

You caused the heart ache.

I caused the bond break.

And sorry just doesn’t cut it.

The past that once was filled with joy is all pain now.

The present empty,

The future, inconceivable.

And still there is that small faint voice

Insisting that I mend it.

But, how can the ripped-up fabric of us ever be beautiful again?

Or healed, or whole?


a ball of yarn

Reconciliation is like the woman who longed to make a sweater.

She searched and searched and found the perfect yarn.

She knit and knit for hours and hours,

And made herself a sweater.

But, the sweater lay untouched in the back of a drawer,

For, though the yarn was beautiful and the stitches perfect,

The collar was crooked and the fit was bad.

She couldn’t wear it and she couldn’t bear to throw it away.

So she took it out from time to time,  felt the smooth stitches and frowned over the way it had turned out.

One day the woman realized that the yarn was still wonderful,

And she believed that it still held great promise.

So she unraveled the sweater and rolled the yarn into a ball,

And started over.

She knit a brand new thing, a scarf.

“Better a scarf that can be worn than a sweater that is of no use,” she reasoned.

She soon forgot the sweater that once had been her dream,

Because the scarf was remarkably beautiful.

And even though it was not what she thought she wanted, she realized that she had something of great value,

From the same material, by the same hand,

Into something new, for something new.


a ball of yarn

“And no one pours new wine into old wineskins. If he does, the wine will burst the skins, and both the wine and the wineskins will be ruined. No, he pours new wine into new wineskins.” Mark 2:22

Knit up a cap and a prayer

“We’re going to have a baby,” my daughter said nine years ago.  I received the news with wonder, joy and trepidation knowing that we both were entering a world we knew so little about.  Thankfully, some of my friends had gone before me into the domain of grand motherhood and not a single one of them relayed any message but one of complete ecstasy.  A special friend sent me a package in the mail with a zip lock bag containing a ball of yarn, some needles and a pattern.  The image of a wrinkled, white-haired woman on a front porch knitting with her glasses perched on the tip of her nose and her cat curled up at her feet, quickly came to mind and frightened me a little.  I pushed through my own prejudiced stereotyping and curiously examined the contents of the bag.

My mother taught me to knit when I was about 12 and I remember producing long, uneven lengths of tangled color.  I was completely astonished to discover that I did remember how to push the needles through the loops to get the desired result.  Though, I did have to call Mary a few times for a little help, I actually completed the pattern and created a tiny hat for my grand baby to come.

You can get into a kind of zone when you knit.  There is pleasure in the rhythmic movement and the sound of the soft clicking of needles.  I found myself caught up in the hum of prayer with each loop and lift of hand as I contemplated our eminent miracle.  I heard The still small Voice wooing me with, “I knit YOU together in your mother’s womb.”

My first little cap led to many other projects – stockings, ponchos, scarves, sweaters etc.  Admittedly, most of my items were not so great and I fear my children and grandchildren wore them to bless me and took them off when I was out of sight.  Worn or unworn, I take pleasure in knowing that long after the sweaters lose their shape, the caps are lost and the stockings unravel, the prayers that I knit will continue to live on.

I would love to send you a little cap or better still a zip lock bag with all the goodies you need to knit one, but instead, I will give you the next best thing.


With a 16 inch circular needle – size 5 or 6 – cast on 68 (72,76,80) stitches.  Join ends of yarn being careful not to twist.  Knit in a circle for 5 (5.5,6,6.5) inches.  Put 4 markers on needles evenly spaced.  Knit 2 together before and after each marker every row.  You will need to change to short double point needles (sock needles) when it gets too tight.  Knit until just a few stitches remain, thread a needle and pull remaining stitches through and secure inside the cap.  Add a pompom.


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